Monday, January 15, 2018

The Beginning of 2018


The obsolete unpublished unfinished post I have written, that seems to be a million years ago:

"My girl Charlotte is 4 months old today. The pregnancy and the labor went well, although at the beginning of the second trimester the doctor announced that the fetus might have been too small.  They required me to lay down on the left side at least 4 hours a day. But thank God she was born normal, 3kg, 48cm long. It was quite easy to gave birth to her, to my surprise..."

She is now almost 4, how time flies.



Between then and now I have grown so much, more than I thought. Or perhaps it is for the first time I have realized that I grown mentally, pshycologically.. Evolving. Wiser, I think. I hope.

I am more comfortable with myself right now.

Have found the love of my life, not only he fulfilled me but also I am the better version of myself when I am with him. I asked myself from time to time, have I not met him, can I be the person I am today right now?

With the (early) challenge of being a mother, at the end of the day it gives me a chill to even think that what life is like without him by my side. I shared him this fear last night, he said that he would never let me be a mommy to his daughter without him by my side. This assures. For the single mother out there, your level of maturity if definitely above me.

Coming to this year, like almost every year I have written what I remember I had accomplished and what I wish to do in the future. I didn't start with checklist like years before, but instead asking myself this question.

What kind of Mother, Wife, and Woman do I want to be in 2018?

In a piece of paper I scribbled:

Wife: kind, loving, sweet, supporting, and let the husband do his stuff
Mother: no snap, no threat, loving, kind, encourage, comfort, long love, patient, soft-spoken, cuddly, cute, funny
Woman: strong willpower, achievement, wise, healthy, smart, courageous

So, you might ask, for this past 15 days, have I been the wife, mother, self I want to be? This came out harder than I thought.

I sometimes act as a mother to D (It's the initial of my husband's name. I don't mind mentioning his name, it will come out anyway, but for some reason I always refer him to D whenever I write about him). Please wear your scarf, don't forget the umbrella, here is your gloves, etc.. I thought that this is the right thing to do until two weeks ago when it had exponentially angered him.

That day we were supposed to go out and I asked if he could wear more outfits as there will be wind, he thought that he had worn enough, but I insisted.  He ended up doing what I asked him.

But it was very obvious that he was angry. We have promised C (my daughter, Charlotte) to go visit the Eiffel Tower the day before so we won't cancel this. Especially this might be the only sunshine we have for the week.  He asked me and C to go ahead and walk to the metro station while he would checked out the car. But I know that this is a pretext for we needed this space to calm down.

The selfish part of me is annoyed and think, why is he so stubborn, what happen if he gets sick again.  The other side think why would something so simple angered the man so much?

When he arrived behind us I let him walk in front of me along with C.  Confused and sad, I didn't understand his anger.

Maybe it is alright to let others take control, he has been living far longer than me and he should know himself better than me. And especially he is not my son, he is my husband.

I ran to him, at this time we have arrived at île aux cygnes and the sun was shining so brightly, I tried to hold his hand. "I am sorry.." I said. I looked at his face. Still angry.
"I have said no to you, have I?"
"Yes you did"
"Why insisted?"
"I don't know"


Before C was born we have this thing between us that any disagreement we have between us, it should resolved as soon as possible. I think this is my idea for I hate conflict, but this works for him too who is a little bit on the independent side.

Hugged him from the side. I looked at him.

"You don't need to insist when I have given you my no." he continued.

I stopped walking, and looked at him some more. Charlotte pull him away from me I think she wanted to show him something that she found. Somehow remember this scribble I wrote on a piece of paper for this new year resolution: "let the husband do his stuff.." 

I knew right away that I needed to practice what I wrote. How could something so simple involve so much of emotion!

I ran to him, and said "d'accord." means yes in french, then hugged him.

Hold his hand and he squeezed mine.

We grow because of the challenge of the daily things. If you tell me this 10 years ago I would have shrugs it off. But it is real.

I wanted to tick off this resolution but I know that there will be events like this in the future, and every time it appears, will it be ticked off or will I let my ego gets to me.

This time us win, not my ego. I hope that this means that I am closer to be the wife I want to be.





Gorgeous day isn't it? 

Friday, December 15, 2017

Do You Have Hoop Earrings?


Hello there, can I talk to you about what have filled my bench these days? (bench? I mean, well you know.) They are the hoop earrings.  In case you are completely clueless of what it is, I found an great article about it: here is an introduction on what hoop earrings is and how to wear them.  But if you ask for my opinion here it is:

Casual small, Glam large.
Mountain small, Beach large.
Street large, party larger, wedding I should say medium.
Office small or medium.
And groceries, post office, walking dog, taking kids to school, doctor visit..  Large, Large, Large..

Don't we all dream about going somewhere special and what to wear etc while most of the time it only happens very rarely. And worstly, we ignore for the fact that it is also important to look good everyday. This means going to groceries, post office, and other errand places.

Out of curiosity, do you wear jewelry everyday? I wear a small pair of earrings, and my wedding ring, everyday. Even if I don't go out that day, it is more like a ritual for me to look good and to feel good. Do you have a ritual to feel good?

I do. I woke up around 7 AM in the morning, then coffee, while waiting for it to brew I stretch, and say my affirmation phrases.  And at night before bed I pray for everybody I love. These are my ritual to feel good.

Anyway,

I rarely wear XL hoops, but if I do I feel so great.  At the beginning of my creation, the largest round hoop I have created then had been the one with the diameter of 1.75 inches (or 4.5 cm) It was quite big.

Then it was not big enough, and moved to 2.35 inches ( or 6 cm) in diameter, like the one below.


Then the summer came and for some reason the idea to make flower shape hoop earrings came about.  Voila it came in mediumlargeextra large in rose gold filled, and extra extra large in yellow gold filled.





The last shape I have made, just this week, is the oval, in two sizes: small and extra large.



This is me with the XL oval hoop. And while typing all these, I am thinking about should I watch The Bachelor, What is the last name of Prince Harry's fiancée, is it Merkel or Markle? and I am also listening to this.

So, Which one is your favorite? and out of curiosity, do you also multitask? 

Monday, November 27, 2017

Where Have I Been



Hello there. I feel like I am obliged to reintroduced myself because of the long missing in action on the virtual world. Well, to start off, I have no more big tummy. Even if I am still wearing my pregnant jeans. Oops. I know. These kilos decided to love me more than I love them.  The weight is 60kg for 160cm right now, and my ideal weight should be around 52-53kg. So, 7 more kilos to go. Tough but not tough. I practice yoga from time to time. I am in a search of a good yoga book, or video, by the way, if you have a recommendation on which video to watch, I am more than happy to check it out.  Because to be honestly honest with you, lately browsing free yoga video on youtube means browsing Sam Smith new songs or watching Oprah Super Soul Sunday on Youtube

I also have been back to my jewelry bench. As "bench" means three pliers, cutter, and metal nail filer, laid on a piece of cloth laid all on the floor while I work sitting on the floor folding my legs.  If not at work the "space" I used to create everything you see here is just a space on the floor.  I live 5 minutes to Paris, although far less expensive than the Paris itself, we still can't afford bigger space. Thus the workspace. 

Grateful as ever though, as nothing I posses should define my state of wellbeing. 

I have a 3 years old daughter, she will turn 4 in March. She loves to draw:






The last picture is her drawing on a piece of receipt paper from the restaurant. She is very active and get bored very easily, if you are a mom of this age group you know what I mean, so I found a pen and paper in my bag, it literally save my life. Well, I exaggerate, not life, just give me a calm moment for those time she imagined a girl watering her garden.

Last September she started her first year of school, here in France they call it Petite Section, where I drop her off around 8:45 AM and picked her up at 11:45 AM.  She stays half day because I prefer to have lunch with her and she still sleeps with her mama. 

Since the beginning of this year I have been praying and thinking of what I want to do, as a woman, not just a mom.  I still don't know, to be honest with you.  For the moment I am just continuing what I left off here, and just see where the faith brings me to.

Hopefully you will see me often here too. It is good to be back. 

Wednesday, February 05, 2014

Having a Big Stomach


Today I am 4 days past 34th weeks, the movement inside has been more intense than it has been before. It tickles me gently, at times not too gently, but no matter how intense it makes me proud everytime. Why do I love this being so much, even if she isn't being born just yet.

It gets harder to walk longer, heavy, for sure. But the urge from the doctor to lay down on the left side has prevent me to do more stuff I'd like to do. The jewelry has been a bit abandoned consequently.

At the beginning of the pregnancy the tiresome made me guilty, I hated to stay in bed and fell asleep while I can do so many things around the house, creating something, take more photos of the jewelries, or just stay outside under the sunshine. But right now all those negative feeling vanished and what seems to be more important is to have the fetus inside me grow.

It's 6 more weeks before the due date, if I am lucky you can come out at any moment in three weeks. Am I ready, are we ready, yes, no. This feels weird.  

Friday, December 13, 2013

SOS Doudou


I love if when I stumble upon some 'different' public notice..  This is another one.

Translated: S.O.S security blanket/sleeping bunny/friend; Lost white rabbit at Rue de l'Espérance, 11 April around 5:30 PM. Thank you in advance: 06 09 52 03 88

It's cute how far parents would go to find what it is precious to their baby. I think I can see myself doing this. Oh I hope they find the doudou..

Have a good weekend :)

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Christmas Gift


From time to time I get the honor to pack a christmas gift. This time is from a husband who needs to work far from home and won't be there for christmas. I asked him if I can handwritten something for his wife he said that he already had a letter to send to her, he asked me if I can send a note 'Christmas Present, Do Not Open'. I think it's cute, so cute.

As I type through this blog post, I received a notification that I have receive a review for this blue necklace. It makes me smile. She wrote "Beautiful beautiful necklace. My granddaughter will love it. Thank's." 

It's really my day today!

Thursday, December 05, 2013

Mustard, Citrus or Mango



This post is dedicated to Caroline. She bought this pair of earrings a month ago and accidentally broke the vintage millefiori over a shower, although it's not directly touching the water I suspect that the humidity really ruined this poor, literally, old glass beads. Results: she is left with a half wiped flower decoration on the coins. aw :(. 
Very patient she emailed me and told me everything about it, like a sweet seller I told her to relax (of course right) and try to figure out something for her.. 

So, Caroline, I might have misread your email last week and apologize for taking three days to get back to you. It's nothing personal but my gyneco told me to lay down 4 hours a week so the baby in my stomach can rest and grow big.

Dear blog readers: OMG, I worry that I might not yet annouce you about this good news, oh well, there you know it :) I am not good a making a toast and an official announcement anyway. Will perhaps post the silly teletubies stomach later if you behave. My husband said that I look like one of these, mean right. I don't mind  though. They're cute *positive smile*

Back to my kind client, voilà three options for you. They are different size and shape however on somewhat the same tone of colors. I ignored the fact that you might be more interested in having it replaced in the same shape rather than color. You see, it's the pregnant brain functioning. 

Anyhow, I might risk not having you liking all three but I'd like to show you anyway. 

The first option is a pair of mustard picasso crystals, made in Czech republic. It's flat, rectangular, with a pretty detail around the frame, and the hole pierced through the vertical line/ lengthwise. Each measures 8mm x12mm.  



The second pair is a AAA grade Carnelian faceted onion briolette in bright orange. It measures around 7x8mm. Different from the regular teardrop gemstone an onion briolette is rather round and short and it can sits down on its own. 


This is the comparison between the two from different angle. 


Alright now, the last option, I keep it the last because actually this might be my favorite one. But you might have different opinion it's for you to decide. 


A pair of bright mango yellow chalcedony of AAA quality gemstone, sizing around 10mm in diameter. I've wirewrapped this in sterling silver, I need you to imagine it a bit in a rose gold filled, I think it's not bad at all. What do you think? 

All of these are smaller than your glass beads that has 12mm diameter and none of them have a gorgeous flower detail on it. I completely understand if you don't like all three, I'll be more than happy to look more in my stock of what I can do for you if you don't mind waiting. 

Cheers.

Oh PS, I forgot talking about the price. The picasso beads can go with the price I talked to you on the email, however for the gemstone they're more expensive. 

Please let me know what you think :) Have a good day. 

For my blog readers, which one do you think Caroline should choose to replace her vintage millefiori?